Holly Madison, the former Playboy rabbit and girlfriend of Hugh Hefner, admitted that the first time she had sex with the founder of the popular men’s magazine was a “painful” experience.

Note that the model and Hugh Hefner started dating in 2001, when they were 21 and 75, respectively, and were together until 2008.

“I was pretty drunk,” Madison, now 41, said on the Power: Hugh Hefner podcast. “It was literally pushed over me. And after that happened, I was ashamed and embarrassed, and it had more of an emotional impact than I expected.” I confess.

Madison added that the episode happened after a night out with a group of other women. When he returned to the Playboy mansion with Hefner, he did not expect the relationship to expand so quickly.

“I wasn’t necessarily expecting to have sex that night. I thought it would be kind of a first date, although it’s obviously not a traditional first date,” he said. And if I’m not comfortable, I don’t have to do anything and I can decide if I want to go on a second date or not.”

However, the model stressed that what made her uncomfortable was the fact that everyone found out that she had sex with Hefner. “I think he was very smart, I liked him a lot, so I liked him, and it wasn’t the idea of ​​sex that turned me off so much. I know that’s hard for a lot of people to understand because there’s the idea of ​​’Oh, he’s a disgusting old man,'” he said.

“It was really the look of the set that left me outside my comfort zone. I was like, ‘Okay, this happened. Everyone knows what happened.'”

Remember, Hugh Hefner passed away in 2017 at the age of 91.