In the fight for guardianship of her assets and fortune, Britney Spears on Friday, the 15th, made a long blast on social media about the feelings that dominate her at this point in which she’s reclaiming a taste of freedom.

“I’ll be honest and say I’ve waited so long to get out of the situation I’m in…Now that I’m here, I’m afraid to do anything because I’m afraid I’ll make a mistake! For many years I’ve always been told that if I’m successful at things, it might end… In the end, I’m very happy, but there are a lot of things that scare me.”

Britney said exposure, and specifically the harassment of paparazzi, is a topic she fears. “I’m tired of the system and I’d like to live in another country,” she admitted.

Eager to enjoy her freedom, the eternal pop princess decided to anticipate Christmas and actually ride the tree, even before Halloween. “I think any reason to find more happiness in life is a good one,” he said.

In the same message, Britney Spears also left a message for her family members. He concluded by saying, “Lord, have mercy on my family’s souls if I give an interview!!! But… I will stay out of the spotlight, which I’ve been doing all my life.”

The singer is getting closer and closer to regaining her tutelage. On September 29, a Los Angeles court decided to suspend custody of her father, who for 13 years has had legal control over the singer’s assets and wealth.

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